Wondering

If thinking about heart and love, I wish for someone who can be IMAM of family. Not only a husband. But also IMAM, leader, counsellor, minister...just like my father. Yeah, a lot of people adore their parents. I am too though. He's my inspiration. It's hard to find someone like him today. I don't know how to describe it, but I wish to find someone like him. Might not 100%, but something fatherly is okay.
I'm not ready for love relationship yet...because I'm afraid. And I'm not convinced with cyberlove, or sms love...it's true that in relationship, you just need kind heart. But it's a lie if someone does not imagine on how their partner look like. Girl like me are afraid with that kind of thing. Getting rejected after some hope just because of the look. In this world, look is everything even people's tongue saying that heart is more important. That's why...I'm not ready with that yet. I still love this single life...where I have least thing to think...and that least thing are bigger thing. My family...my family is my responsibility, and that responsibility is my biggest thing in my life...duniawi and ukhrawi.

What am I saying....hmm...just letting out what's in my mind...

p/s: I'm glad to be met with some people in my life...important and advicing me all this while. My parents, my sister, my brother, my grandparents, my SBF4eva, and my loyal trusted friends...I'm syukran to Allah to have them, even I'm just borrowing them...(^_^)