Wondering

If thinking about heart and love, I wish for someone who can be IMAM of family. Not only a husband. But also IMAM, leader, counsellor, minister...just like my father. Yeah, a lot of people adore their parents. I am too though. He's my inspiration. It's hard to find someone like him today. I don't know how to describe it, but I wish to find someone like him. Might not 100%, but something fatherly is okay.
I'm not ready for love relationship yet...because I'm afraid. And I'm not convinced with cyberlove, or sms love...it's true that in relationship, you just need kind heart. But it's a lie if someone does not imagine on how their partner look like. Girl like me are afraid with that kind of thing. Getting rejected after some hope just because of the look. In this world, look is everything even people's tongue saying that heart is more important. That's why...I'm not ready with that yet. I still love this single life...where I have least thing to think...and that least thing are bigger thing. My family...my family is my responsibility, and that responsibility is my biggest thing in my life...duniawi and ukhrawi.

What am I saying....hmm...just letting out what's in my mind...

p/s: I'm glad to be met with some people in my life...important and advicing me all this while. My parents, my sister, my brother, my grandparents, my SBF4eva, and my loyal trusted friends...I'm syukran to Allah to have them, even I'm just borrowing them...(^_^)

kesibukan dunia

minggu ni dan minggu depan akan menjadi minggu yang sibuk..
pagi sampai petang...
petang sampai malam..
malam sampai tengah malam...
tapi tak apa lah...
sekejap ja...
hehe..
but what is the most exciting thing now?
I've found a song entitled Believe in Love...
sang by IU and Yoo Seung Ho
I love the lyrics and melody...
the lyric shows me that how one person could not understand one's distress and sorrow
but insisted himself to put him in those shoes...
feeling wanted to help, but couldn't...
and wishing everyone to at least give them some love even if we couldn't give them more than that..
it's all for the victims of war and mistreatment...
it's also reminds me of the victims in Palestine...
our brothers and sisters...
how Bosnia, an Islamic country been tortured until it disappeared from world...
soon, Islam will come back to the top as written in faith and fate...
it will and sure will...
the world's nowadays lies will soon be clouded with the truth...
and at that time, nothing can stop Islam's justness...
(^_^)

rindu

ana rindu sahabat2 ana...rindu sangat2...

Alhamdulillah...

Alhamdulillah...

kelas ana semua berjaya semester lepas...

Alhamdulillah..

untuk sem ni, ana nk blajar lebih lagi...

insyaAllah...(^_^)

perasaan gementar....

entah mengapa ana takut nak duduk exam..

ana sebenarnya susah nak rasa macam tu..

sebab ana jenis yang suka bersaing dalam diam...

ana takkan tunjuk yang ana sedang bersaing sebenarnya...

sebab ana takut jadi sombong...

bila sombong, hasilnya pun ... tak payah cakapla...

tak boleh nak sombong pun...

sebab tu la ana tak berani nak sombong...

ana dah berusaha cari diri ana yang dulu...

ana yang suka bersaing, ana yang suka mendiamkan diri...

tapi mana ana dulu tu sekarang?

sahabat ana pun tanya mcam tu...

"mana nisa yang kami kenal dulu? apa dah jadi dengan dia sekarang?"

betul tu...

mana nisa tu? apa dah jadi dengan dia? kenapa dia lemah sangat sekarang? dulu dia tak perlukan sapa2 untuk mberi semangat pada dia...dulu dia tak perlukan sapa2 untuk jaga dia...dulu dia tak perlukan sapa2 untuk force dia...

kenapa...

kenapa nisa yang sekarang berubah? kenapa dia malas? kenapa dia sedih? mana pergi ketawa dan senyuman dia?

am i started to lose myself? is she gone? is she dead?

bila ana bukak semua persoalan ni, ana taw ana tak boleh macam ni. bukan ana sorang je yang ada masalah, bukan ana sorang je yang takut...

ana kena kuat...sesungguhnya Mukmin yang kuat itu lebih baik daripada mukmin yang lemah...

alhamdulillah...ana harap dengan kalimah2 ni, ana dapat jadi lebih kuat, jadi lebih tenang...

insyaAllah...

entah mengapa...

minggu depan ana akan menduduki exam semester...tapi entah mengapa ana rasa kurang bersemangat. jujur ana beritahu, ana rindu sangat pada keluarga ana. ana juga takut hendak exam. dugaan...dugaan...

salam aidiladha

assalamualaikum...
dh lama ana x update blog ni sbb web blog dh kne blocked kt kampus...jd bru ada ksmptn skrg la ana nk update...
tlebih dahulu, ana nk ucapkn Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidiladha buat semua umat Islam yang menyambut dan sama-sama lah kita berkorban demi Islam.